AHHHHHHH! I AM SO FRUSTRATED!!!!
Unless you have what is called a high "TVQ", I guess you don't matter in this stupid town. And of course, it's impossible to build it because no one will give you a shot unless you already have it. Sometimes I wonder if talent even counts for anything anymore. I can't tell you how many times I've heard this phrase in the last year: "We love you, but we just have to go with a bigger name."
First, it's the countless auditions I can't even get into because I need more recognizable credits in order to be granted access to the casting office.
Then it's things like this movie where the Executive Producer wanted me and put fierce pressure on the first time Director. But of course, the role went to some UTA repped chica who was perceived as more recognizable. (But really, you wouldn't even know her name.) (To add insult to injury, after the movie was wrapped, that same EP and other people I knew from the shoot openly admitted I would have been better in the role.)
Then it's another feature I basically booked this month... "The whole office just loves you" and "you're so talented." Then the producer emailed me last week apologizing profusely because their distributors had rejected the entire cast they selected. He was equally as frustrated at having to start the casting process again from scratch and was nice enough to take the time write:
Then today I saw that a very good friend of mine of five years is (finally) directing his first feature!! Yay! Supporting his work through grad school and helping on a few little shorts here and there (plus the fact that once upon a time we dated for a hot second)* is finally going to pay off!!! I immediately texted him and sent a link to my new reel...
Awesome right?? Well, just hold on a second. This came next...
Of course they want someone with more TVQ. Everyone does. But my question is... HOW CAN A TALENTED, DEDICATED, (APPARENTLY) NOT BAD LOOKING GIRL GET SOME TVQ AROUND HERE??
*For the record: I would NEVER sleep with someone for a role, and neither should you, that's totally beneath you. I'm just saying, if I'm still good friends with an ex, I will absolutely make that phone call.